Jasper

I had him put to sleep yesterday. He was sick and having trouble breathing and there was mucus coming out his nose. His dry form had turned into wet form and it was killing him very quickly. He couldn’t control his bladder and he was covered in urine. I shouldn’t have waited as long as I did to end it but I was trying so hard to help him. I really wanted to save him more than anything and I’m really angry that this happened. I miss him so much and I can’t stand this. I haven’t been able to stop crying. My only consolation right now is that he’s not suffering anymore.

get on skype if you wanna talk.

Thanks for letting me bounce my fears off you at that ungodly hour. <3

Still waiting on a call from the vet. Decided that instead of taking him in today I’m just gonna bug her on the phone a lot until she orders the LTCI. We’ll see what happens.

Oh! But I did give him some tuna in the tuna juice earlier and it’s the most enthusiastic I’ve seen him eat in DAYS so that’s good.

Can’t sleep at all.

I am so worried about Jasper. He is really not doing well and I just really need him to be okay. He’s had such a bad start, I want him to get the chance to have a life before anything happens. This is just so unfair.

Update

So I have not been posting much lately and this is why.

Jasper, the white one in the following picture, is sick. The vet seems to think he has FIP (Feline Infectious Peritonitis)

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Feline_infectious_peritonitis)

Which is, as you can see, really bad.

The ridiculous thing is that we had him vaccinated for it and he’s still dying. It is so hard to watch him suffer and I have done everything I can think of to help him. We’ve offered numerous suggestions to the vet of things we have researched HOPING that is somehow NOT this because it is a death sentence. After everything this poor kitten has been through I cannot come to terms with the fact that THIS of all things is going to be his ending. He has gotten significantly worse over the last couple of days and I can’t stand watching it happen.

I am making him a vet appointment tomorrow to see if my vet will get behind me on an un-FDA-approved treatment for FIP called LTCI (Lymphocyte T-Cell Immunomodulator) because if it is at ALL possible to save this cat I am GOING to do it.

http://tcyte.com/

http://www.stevedalepetworld.com/print-archive/tribune-media-services/weekly-q-a-a/452-reader-question-ltci-vs-im-two-new-fip-treatments

http://healingheartscats.wordpress.com/

http://www.examiner.com/article/miracle-girl-fip-couldn-t-kill-me

People have HAD success and that gives me a little hope. I know its unlikely that he’ll survive this but I HAVE to try to give him the life he deserves. I HAVE TO.

Fact:

I am almost always blogging with a cat touching me.